So I have been so busy with everything that has been going on in my life.
I have recently stopped writing for those blogs. With school and everything that has been going on in my life I just couldn't keep up. Plus, I realized I need to write for me.
I have felt so burnt out these last few months because I was writing so, so much for other people and nothing for myself, I realized I need to get back to writing for my own eyes and a smaller audience in order to get my head back in the right place.
In terms of my ED, things that got better during group treatment have slipped back into those nasty habits. I don't go for my new assessment until November 2nd and it's getting hard to wait. I feel like I'm losing grips on my life again and it's scary as hell. I've completely relapsed in anyway that I made progress and it's horrible.
My depression has been bad again and no medication seems to be helping me. I'm starting to not know what to do.
As far as my addiction goes I can at least say that things have been better. I haven't been craving as much and I feel like this is the only part of my life that is in control.
I've been going to and running my meetings but I feel like nothing seems to help my ED and depression. It's like nobody really understands and I don't know who to turn to.
So, I'm back here hoping you guys will get it. I've missed you all.
Much love, xx/
Hun so good to see you back here
ReplyDeleteI've missed you so much!
I thought of you often
And hoped that you were ok
And you are
And I am so glad
First
I am so proud of you for staying clean
And keeping to your commitments at the group
Second
I am so glad that you saw that writing too much for others was not helping you
In recovery it's vital that we put ourselves first and out recovery
As regards your ED
Are you getting any support at all?
You know you will always have support here
But it's also good to have support from professionals to
As you say
Slips and relapse are part of recovery
So please don't beat yourself up
This happens to the best of us
Do email me if you would like to chat
I'm always here for you
And always have time for you
Again
I'm so happy to hear from you
Don't be a stranger
Love you x
It's so good to read a post from you! Hope that you are ok despite the ED and the depression. We go through times when everything is worse, so I hope you come out of it soon. Take care. Thinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteHey lovely, it's so good to see an update from you. I hope the new assessment brings something positive. Is there anyone you could see in the meantime to talk to and help you keep focused, even just a GP or nurse?
ReplyDeleteI can relate to feeling a bit hopeless in terms of medication for depression. When I inquired as to the alternative, I was suggestive equine therapy. Frikkin' horses. The only advice I can give is to keep soldiering on. As frustrating as it is, they have a plethora of medications to work through, and chances are at least one of them has to work.
Try to take care of yourself, okay? Love you <3
xxxx